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Dec 16, 2012 csquared9 commented on I Am Adam Lanza's Mother.
I feel the need to speak out about the recent school shooting. We always go to the gun control side of this problem. Every shooter we have had in our history has a mental problem. That is the real problem. We need to address it. I have a sister who has suffered with schizophrenia all of her life. She is 3 years older than me. When I was under school age, she was my hero being the older sister. I knew immediately upon entering kindergarten that she was not like the rest of the kids. Through my elementary school time I kept telling my parents what she did, like talking to her hand and laughing at inappropriate times. They used to tell me that we were two different people and she was just different from me. I became ashamed to admit she was my sister especially in high school as her behavior became really noticeable. She was a genius on the verge of insanity. She went to college and got a master's in education and actually taught elementary school students until she finally had the first break down and she was fired and diagnosed. The voices they hear in their heads are real. Those voices tell them what they should do. She was "Susan Christ” when she was off her meds. Our family was lucky in the only violent thing she did was punch out an Atlanta policeman.
I watched for years as my parents struggling with her behavior and the fact that they had a flawed child. She became unmanageable and it was finally decided to get her into a home. She was a disruption to the family and when she was finally removed from the family home it was a major relief. She has been in and out of homes, mental hospitals all of her life as they do not like to take the drugs and go off of them at that point. She was so smart she could go into a mental hospital and have herself out within 24 to 48 hours. Jimmy Carter did away with mental hospitals and gave them the personal right to be in charge of themselves. She has to be talked into doing everything. Recently my sister and I and a whole nursing staff had to talk her into putting a "feeding port" in so she would not starve herself. The years of psycho drugs has made her bones brittle so she cannot escape anymore and do damage to herself or anybody else. She walks with a walker. She has resolved herself that this is life and the way it is going to be. She is like talking to a 5 year old. One time when she went on one of her "off the drugs" binges, my dad was angry at her and giving her the devil, she said to him "But Dad, you don't know what it is like living with a mental illness." When I talk to her now I remember that statement and I think, she is still my hero.

I get very angry when I hear things like the psychologist at the University of Arizona knew there was something wrong with the theater shooter and just released him from the college. To me he was textbook schizophrenic. Look into their eyes. A schizophrenic's eyes are in constant motion. I can look back at family photos of my in the past and see the distant look in my sister's eyes. Parents: Please admit your child has something wrong and get help. Psychologist: Please diagnose them correctly. Law Makers: Please make some laws that will not allow them to go back out into society where they can harm themselves and other people. And give them a place to live out their lives in the best possible way that they can. And colleges, they thrive in an educational setting. Most of them are very smart and excel in academics. They are in their early to mid twenties when these voices become out of control. Be prepared. Too many mentally ill people are out there with out the proper treatment and care.