Dec 16, 2012 kcbob joined My Stranger Face
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Dec 16, 2012 kcbob commented on I Am Adam Lanza's Mother.
My step son fits your childs description to a Tee. If you haven't lived it, you cannot know the difficulties. We were always in fear, because he had no concept of boundries or sociatal norms. Fists through the walls, explosive anger, intimidating and belly bumping his mother.... Sweet boy and exceptionally smart and inciteful when he is in a good mood, unpredictable and scary when he's not. Most frustrating is there is little help available. He's been diagnosed Asbergers. Special needs schools won't take him because he's not bad enough, social programs are full, therapists can only see him once a month, etc... We worked with the school, councilors, probation officers, teachers, etc.. His anger issues and feelings of being a victom cause lots of resistance on his part. We lived our lives for years around what happens when his school calls. Not if but when... who will have to leave in the middle of work to get him from school, who takes sick days when hes suspended, etc... For two years, I locked our bedroom door at night for fear he might try to kill us in our sleep. His issues caused intense strain on our family and on our marriage. He is 18 and has been out of our house for 1-1/2 years but we still worry about him. He won't take his meds any longer and we have no say in his life. He talks about having evil in his heart but won't talk to anyone and hasn't done anything.... yet. Though I have intense anger at the young mans actions, I have intense sorrow and understanding for his mother. I'm sure she loved him and wanted to protect him, even at the loss of her own life, up to the very end. There but for the grace of God go I... Please know that there are others of us in your same position. You are not alone.... If you cannot help him, help yourself. Accept that you're not a bad mother. Your actions didn't cause this. Find a support group of people with similar situations to yours to help you find stable ground.... good luck and god bless
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