I met you at your house and we fooled around. I was too wasted on four hits of E to do anything, but at least we got you off. Normally that would be cool, but you're one of my best friends, and since I'm supposed to be in a monogamous relationship, I think you're scared to talk to me.

What I really wanna know is, can we still roll together, or are we gonna fuck around again? If so, I have to figure out how to tell the only man I've ever loved that, despite all the wonderful things about him, my taste for sex is so far beyond his that I'm going to be forced to end it before I hurt him. But I don't want him to think he's not good in bed just because he's not as interested as I am.

Am I just evil? I don't think anyone has any idea what a slut I am -- they think I'm a great example of a happy, monogamous gay man. And it was true for years. Now you know I'm a slut too, cuz you were a slut with me.

I know we'll never be together romantically, but can we still pal around and share our various stories of sexual conquests? (You should see the cutie I hooked up with today.... I told you I'm a slut!) I realize what I could be throwing away, and how I could spend the rest of my years as a bitchy old fag. At least the money will keep the men around -- but not the good ones. As for now, I just want my friend back.

-- Anonymous