Queer Issue 2014

How to Have Sex with a Trans Person

How to Have Sex with a Trans Person
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Queer Issue 2014

Speed dating doesn't usually appeal to me. But when I saw a speed-dating event specifically for queer and trans people, I couldn't resist. I was traveling, and my expectations weren't very high, but there was one person I hit it off with. She was hanging out with trans friends, and all signs said she was perfectly safe. Still, I must admit, there was a tinge of hesitation on my part. You'd be surprised how many people are fine with having trans friends but freak out at the prospect of a trans lover. After the event ended, I worked up the courage to make a move. Before I knew it, we were making out in a hotel room.

For trans people, sex can be an anxiety-laden issue. Sexuality has been used as the basis for a lot of discrimination against trans people, who are treated as sexual objects, and the medical system has a long history of putting trans people through twisted expectations around sexuality.

For example, the first time I went to a therapist, out of the blue he asked me if I ever masturbated while wearing my mother's clothing. I was taken aback by his incestuous suggestion and only later realized it was apparently a diagnostic test. (Supposedly, if you crossdress without masturbating, you're a true transsexual, but if you masturbate, too, then it's just a sexual fetish.)

Liking sex too much, in the wrong way, or with the wrong people can mean you don't get access to hormones. After decades of this system, trans people learned and taught each other how to jump through all the right hoops. For some, it's just about preparing younger trans people to deal with the doctors. Many of these outdated notions have been removed since the turn of the century; however, large portions of the trans community continue to enforce them anyway.

When I was first transitioning, an older trans woman explained one benefit of testosterone blockers: They kill your sex drive. She said fetishists can't stand it, so only the true women remain. My jaw dropped at the implication that real women don't have sex drives, but I remembered her lesson—pretend not to want sex or people will judge you.

When I hook up with someone, the ghosts of those conversations are often in my head. Others invest so much attention in how trans people use our genitals. Are they expecting me to penetrate them? Will they be disappointed if I don't want to? Will they be disgusted if I do? With so many other people's desires for my body, it can be hard to know my own desires. At some points, I can't tell if I'm actually averse to certain kinds of touching or sex, or if I just think that I should be. Either way, the result is the same: anxiety if we try it.

Sex should be humanizing. It should be about what you want to do, not what you think others want you to do. That's actually a big part of why I got into making porn and erotic documentaries. I wanted a space where other trans people and I could take center stage and represent ourselves in our own vision.

I love moments in which being trans just doesn't matter. It can happen in porn, with a familiar partner, or just with someone who I know is a good ally. I don't have to stop to say, "Wait, there's something about me you should know," as tension rises for a dramatic reveal. I don't feel like there's some toxic cloud hanging over me that requires us to sit down and have a serious conversation. I can feel like any other person. In the throes of passion, I don't want to have to ask a potentially mood-killing question like "Are you afraid of seeing me completely naked?"

As it turned out, that night after speed dating, we kept our underwear on the entire time. I don't know if that's something she wanted or something she thought I wanted. With a Hitachi Magic Wand pressed between us, I stopped imagining everything that could go wrong and just focused on all the ways we could make it go right. Honestly, we probably could have benefited from some more communication. But, for once, I was grateful not to need it.

So how do you make sex great when you or your partner is trans? Do you talk it all through or do you pretend it doesn't matter? Do you plan out each move or be spontaneous? It depends on circumstance. The best advice I can give is that while sex when you're trans can be really complicated, you don't have to make it complicated.

Communication can be powerful, just don't make it be about being trans. Discuss with all your partners what words turn them off and what words make them hot. Ask someone you're with what sort of sex they want to have, what sort of touch is good, and if there are any spots or activities to avoid. Know what you might expect but don't make assumptions. Take stock of your anxieties and ask for whatever reassurances you need to feel safe. Above all, remember sex is supposed to be about fulfilling the desires of the people in the room, and you should ignore the messages from others who might judge. recommended

Tobi Hill-Meyer is a multiracial trans woman activist, writer, and filmmaker. She runs the feminist porn site DoingItOnline.com, and her work can be found in Trans Bodies, Trans Selves: A Resource for the Transgender Community and at HandbasketProductions.com.

 

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Thanks for writing this. I hope we come to be seen as valid partners in the queer and straight communities and this is great for allies who think of us as sexless. :)
Posted by Spike1382 on June 25, 2014 at 6:07 PM · Report this
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You'd be surprised how many people are fine with having trans friends but freak out at the prospect of a trans lover.


Uh, no, I wouldn't.
Posted by bigyaz on June 26, 2014 at 3:22 PM · Report this
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Ummm...that's nice for you that you are trans, but I'd say 90% of crossdressers at one point or another are sure they are trans. Don't you think that therapists SHOULD be 100% sure that the person is trans before they engage in possibly irreversible surgery? That fatal mistake has driven some to suicide. That's the way to tell a crossdresser, if the urge to dress ebbs and flows in tandem with libido. The older trans woman you quote was correct--if the urge to dress is blocked by a testosterone blocker, then the person is a crossdresser. That has nothing to do with cis women and libido, or wanting or not wanting sex.
Posted by Marrena on June 26, 2014 at 9:05 PM · Report this
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Ummmm, I'd say pulling that 90% number out of... the air is prejudiced and there's not reason to believe it. People, including trams people and crossdressers, know themselves better than you think. Trans folks and people who know and work with them know what's up and what it is to be trans. They don't need to be policed. Not getting appropriate intervention is more of a risk than the getting too much intervention you seem to suggest.
Posted by jfc on June 27, 2014 at 8:11 AM · Report this
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Ummm, pulling that 90% out of... thin air is prejudiced and not believable or useful. Trans people know themselves. So do crossdresssers. Trans folks not getting desired and appropriate intervention is a greater risk than others getting it by accident.
Posted by jfc on June 27, 2014 at 8:20 AM · Report this
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#5: You assert that Trans people, as a group, know themselves. If this is true it puts them head-and-shoulders above any other demographic group. Knowing oneself is not very common.
Posted by Da5id on June 27, 2014 at 8:56 AM · Report this
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You will get no argument from me that trans women know that they are trans, often from an early age. I am not suggesting that they be policed.

Crossdressers, however, often do not know that they are crossdressers and believe they are trans instead. It is a very rare crossdresser who has not at some point in their life seriously considered transitioning. It's an easy mistake to make and will show up as the trans woman quoted in the article points out--when the testosterone blocker kicks in.

Perhaps if there were more public acceptance of crossdressing, there wouldn't be so much pressure on crossdressers to see themselves as trans. But in the meantime, there are very good reasons for therapists to ask those questions.
Posted by Marrena on June 27, 2014 at 10:06 AM · Report this
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Trans folks not getting desired and appropriate intervention is a greater risk than others getting it by accident.


Given that full SRS includes sterilization, I find this very hard to believe. Are you seriously that self-centered? Good Christ.

And doctors have very good reason not to want to get sued. Want medical treatment? Go through the barriers medical professionals have set up. They're there for a reason.
Posted by keshmeshi on June 27, 2014 at 11:24 AM · Report this
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Marrena, the therapist could very well have asked "do you ever masturbate while wearing woman clothing" without shocking her by mentioning her mother in connection to the sex she was having.

I mean, when you're asking for help, you don't want the therapist to seem to go hinting at incest as a motivator for your trouble.

Suppose a cis woman came in for only being able to orgasm through masturbation, she'll be pretty shocked to hear from the therapist "do you ever use one of your father's chonies as a masturbatory aid ?".

Correct me if I'm wrong, but what I take from Toby's testimony, is that trans are not treated with kid's gloves by therapists, unlike cis. As if being trans was enough of a sexual mishap that they should be open to discuss and hear about every sexual perversion.
Posted by sissoucat on July 1, 2014 at 3:26 AM · Report this

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