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You were supposed to be my homie. You said you was my partner, told me you had my back. You were there for me through thick and thin. You even put money in my pocket. I had much love for you. You would comfort me in my darkest hours. I trusted you. You made me believe you were a leader, so I followed you. I believed in you. When everyone was telling me that you were no good for me, I stood by you. I even went to jail for you; almost died for you; lied, cheated, and stole for you. I hurt people and cut off family and lost too many friends because of the way you controlled and consumed me. Even when I lost everything from being with you, I slept on the cold sidewalk with you in my arms. I loved you unconditionally. I put you before everything, including my basic needs. You were my everything, and how did you repay me? You fucking robbed me. You bankrupted me not only financially, but physically, emotionally, and spiritually. You are the most insidious, deceitful, vindictive, and manipulative creature I have ever met. You truly are the lowest of the low. Fuck you, "addict man"—I risked my life for you, and you ain't shit. Trust and please believe that I am going to let everybody know what you really are. You are the worst thing that ever happened to me. On everything I love, I swear if you ever show your face around me again I will fucking kill you.
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Waaaaaaaaahhhhhh. Where were your balls and brain when you were smitten with what I understand was your criminal butt buddy? You should put aside your feelings, "...I didn't even get a reach around," and shut the fuck up. Apologize to everyone, go back to get your GED, then jump off the Aurora bridge.
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comment #12 is needlessly cruel. 4N6lover can just keep adding to that tattoo as he continues to gain weight.
Anon, good luck getting off the addiction and on with your life.
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And if by some small chance this person IS writing about my ex-boyfriend... I'm playing the world's smallest violin for your whorey ass because that's what you get when you start secretly messing with a dude that you know is cheating on his live-in girlfriend with you :P
@4 Good for you for catching the metaphor.
Somebody might "choose" to use drugs but body chemistry and resources (internal: ability to reason, to cope w/ emotions, etc., external: friends and family, supporting structures like school or community) are significant determinants as to whether or not someone becomes addicted and how they manage their addiction. It's a real crap shoot and it's different for everyone.
She clutched him to her bosom, "You're so beautiful," she cried
"But if I hadn't brought you in, by now you might have died"
Now she stroked his pretty skin again and then kissed and held him tight
But instead of saying thanks, the snake gave her a vicious bite!
"Take me in, oh tender woman
Take me in for heaven's sake
Take me in, tender woman," sighed the snake
"Now I saved you," cried the woman
And you've bit me, even why?
And you know your bite is poisonous and now I'm going to die"
"Ah shut up, silly woman," said that reptile with a grin
“Now you knew darn well I was a snake before you brought me in
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It hurts to be taken advantage of. It hurts like hell, when it's someone that you love.
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Go read the children's book Verdi, or go see the Reptile Guy on the eastside.
Poor, poor, lickably lovable luxurious snakes.
You underestimate their snuggling abilities.
Unless you face up to the fact that you and you alone made all these choices and did all these things, you will never, ever live in long term recovery.
Take some responsibility. The addiction as a disease concept does not abdicate us addicts of responsibility for our actions.
When you go to make amends are you going to say "Gee, I'm sure sorry that I robbed you blind, but my addiction MADE me do it"?
If you blame your addiction for your actions, you might as well go back to slamming dope right now.












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