“I don’t know whose idea it was, but we decided to kill ourselves because it was so horrendous what was happening,” she says in the interview, according to excerpts released by CBS.If you want to die, you will die. If you fail to kill yourself it means you did not want to kill yourself. You wanted to live. You wanted to wake up the next day. You wanted to see yourself in the mirror. You wanted to drink a cup of coffee. You wanted to see the sun in the sky and the people on the streets. You wanted to live through this.
She says it was Christmas Eve, which added to their depression, and she decided: “I just can’t go on anymore.”
She says the couple took “a bunch of pills” including the insomnia prescription medication Ambien, but they both woke up the next day. She says the decision was “very impulsive” and she’s glad they didn’t die.