I love you, but I think I'm gay. Sometimes, I think you know all of this but are ignoring it. I've been ignoring it, too. You are the best person I know. I cannot imagine life without you, and thinking about you fucking another person makes me sick to my stomach. I fell in love with who you are, not your gender, and it has at times made things confusing, to say the least. I have no idea what I should do. Would you be open to my dating other people of my gender? (I don't think you would.) So here I am, stuck in a situation I do not know how to get out of without completely destroying the person I love. I used to think I loved you enough to live my life denying this part of myself, but now I believe that no feeling is strong enough to do that. I have no one to talk to about this. I love you so much. We're stuck in this fucked-up situation, but there is no one I'd rather be in denial with than you.