My little brother Kudzai, in his rock music days. Courtesy of Charles Mudede



Amazing. There are no words.


Beautiful tribute. Sorry for your loss, Charles. 37 is way too soon.


Eloquent. Thank you for giving us a glimpse of your brother.

But why bring a "God" of any kind into an otherwise straight forward description of the mystery of why our universe isn't symmetrical? I suppose some form of deity could have been involved. It could have been the result of a purely mechanical process. Or it could have been the result of something that we are too ignorant to categorize or even conceptualize. We simply don't know.


Sorry for your loss, Charles. Take care of yourself.


Abiogenesis research is something I follow really closely.. The recent book "The Origin and Nature of Life on Earth: The Emergence of the Fourth Geosphere
by Eric Smith, Harold J. Morowitz" was the most interesting thing I've read in a while.


Thanks Charles for your tribute.
This is beautiful and heartbreaking.


If you're seeking power, here's power.


My condolences to you Charles. Stay strong.


Beautiful. I'm sorry for your loss Charles.


Sorry for your loss, Charles. Thanks for the great piece; I hope writing it was a comfort.


Me too, Charles. So sorry for your loss.


We're lucky to have you, Charles. My condolences.




Thank you for sharing this very touching reflection. I wish I could have met him.


Damn, Charles.

Hell of a thing, and hell of a piece of writing. I'm sorry.


Damn, sorry to hear that. Well written piece is a fine tribute to your brother.


Beautiful tribute to your brother, Charles ❤️. My condolences to your and your family.


All the love in the world to you and your family, old friend.


I am so sorry you’ve gone through- are going through- this horrid grief. 37 is far too young, and f**k cancer, really. Beautiful writing. A powerful perspective on these bodies, and matter and love.


I'm so sorry Charles. For a while your grief will be overwhelming and constant. But in time you'll learn to live with it, and you'll have him back again, in your dreams and memories. Take care of yourself, don't forget to eat and sleep.


Beautiful tribute! Whether by means of A God or No God, you were truly Blessed to have had this wonderful person as your small brother, Charles! And take pride in knowing that Kudzai had great comfort and inspiration from you being his big brother! I too have a brother of around the same age difference and even though I did not emulate him completely, he showed me that not only would i survive the next stage of my life, it would be enjoyable, fulfilling and still keep going. Like all of us who have family, yours knows that there is nothing in life that will ever compare to the love found within it! Keep celebrating the time with those you have left!


in the name of my tradition, may his soul be wrapped in the threads of life, and may you, charles and kudzai's circles of life, find comfort in this Place that share the finite and the infinite. יהי זכרו ברוך


After my mother passed away I learned that most of my grief was caused by the fact that I wasn't done with her yet. We had unfinished business she and I, there were things that needed to be said, conversations that needed to happen. I hadn't told her how much I loved her, or I hadn't said it often enough, dammit.

An old copy of The Grief Recovery Handbook saved my life back then. It showed me that I could still talk to her, that I could still talk to her, say all of the things I wanted and needed to say, even if the conversation was one way. There was still a relationship here, at least inside of me. All the tings I wanted to say, all the feelings I wanted to share, all trapped inside of me with nowhere to go.

So talk to him, Charles, if that's what you need to do. Say what needs to be said as often as you need to say it, it's probably what Kudzai would have wanted you to do.

And ignore @26, people like him live in a hell of their own creation surrounded by their own hatred and little else.


This is a beautiful piece written for a clearly well-loved brother. "The worst thing that can happen to any animal is to be no more." Wow, I will sit with that sentence for quite some time. Thank you for sharing this with all of us.


Powerful piece, Charles. I am sorry for your loss. Your family is in my thoughts.


Beautifully written Charles. I mean that. And I'm sorry for your loss.


This was so hauntingly beautiful. I am so sorry for your loss and will keep your family in my prayers!


"Working hard to get my fill
Everybody wants a thrill
Payin' anything to roll the dice
Just one more time
Some will win, some will lose
Some were born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on.

Don't stop believin'
Hold on to that feelin"

Stardust, we are.
Condolences, Charles.


No one should have to go through something like this. I can't imagine how deep the pain must run. The only thing I can offer is this song, from the vocal group Sweet Honey In the Rock, based on words by the Senagalese poet Birago Diop


Death is a useful superstition. Even so, your cancers will kill you significantly later if you stop poisoning your body.


Shame on you. Charles' brother just died. It was totally wack for you to post that. Shame on you.


Thank you for sharing - so eloquent and reminder of how precious our connections and time here are - Wishing you peace and healing, and continued passion every day, in making sense and appreciating this amazing world.


Peace to you and your family, Charles.

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