Credit: Steven Weissman

Yesterday, we crossed paths. I recognized you immediately. Ever since you registered as a sex offender two years ago (I guess you finally got caught), I have been checking on when you get out of jail and where you move. I studied your photo. You’ve changed a lot in the last 14 years: Your face is more pockmarked and your frame is thinner. But your eyes are the same: soulless, empty, and black.

You didn’t even recognize me! I stared at you as you walked across the street holding your daughter (monsters like you shouldn’t have children). I couldn’t believe this was happening. What the fuck are you doing in my neighborhood? I wanted to run and hide, but I knew if I did I would never forgive myself.

I’m no longer the girl you raped. I’ve grown up. I’m 28 now, and I’m not scared of you anymore. I followed you to the bus stop; I wanted to make a scene. I wanted to scream to everyone there that this is the guy who raped me when I was a 14-year-old virgin. But I didn’t. I stood six feet from you and watched you. I watched you with my right hand wrapped around the handle of my Ruger SP101, and it felt fucking awesome. I played God for 60 seconds. I could have ended your life so easily—any one of those .357 hollow points could have done the trick—but then the bus pulled up, and you and your daughter got on. recommended

64 replies on “I, Anonymous”

  1. Wow. Sent chills down my spine! Great pick for I, Anonymous. So sorry to you, anon, for the pain you’ve felt all these years. I’ll be cursing that fucker along with you.

  4. Well, at least she chose an effective handgun. The SP101 is high quality, but not exactly a “ladies gun” given the difficulty of shooting it accurately. But, at 6 feet, maybe Anon doesn’t need to be Deadeye Dick.

  8. @ #6 – you rock, and thank you for being a feminist.

    @ I Anon – Hmmm… GREAT I ANON!!!! And may your rapist be molested by dead camels in hell.

  10. I’m a little concerned to think this lady with her unresolved issues is packing heat. I’m not into getting rid of the 2nd Amendment but I wish CCW’s were a little harder to get. I assume she at least has one of those?

  14. One bullet and I, anon could have been I, celebrity.

    But this is obviously a ripoff/copycat of that guy who went to the Jesuit retirement home and beat up the old priest who raped and tortured him as a child.

    I, copyright infringer.

  18. The part about the gun reads like fantasy to me. I’m inclined to think that the story about seeing him is real, but that she wasn’t actually packing heat.

    And for those of you declaring that it’s fake because she had hollow-point ammunition? Um, that’s pretty standard issue stuff here in Missouri. You can get it at Walmart for like $0.69 a shell. It’s teflon coated that’s hard to get.

  20. #6 and #9. Maybe you dykes have huge hands that can control small firearms with high recoil, but 90% of the public could not effectively shoot an SP-101–male or female. The comment was not, nor intended to be sexist, but thanks for the gratuitious and ignorant posts.

  21. #6 and #9. Perhaps the term “ladies gun” is offensive to you, but the firearms trade coined that phrase to describe handguns that fit smaller hands and more suited to lower recoil. That you wish a gun be used on a poster who understands the trade is disturbing. Do you always wish death on people who post things disagreeable?

    Good luck on whatever mood disorder you must suffer.

  22. This is probably a fake simply because it’s highly implausible. First, if she’s up on his whereabouts, why is she so surprised to see him there? Sex offender registries in WA require that the offender’s status be disclosed to the victim. That she would suddenly discover that he lived in her neighborhood by seeing him around is not likely. Furthermore, it’s not unlikely that a condition of parole or plea deal involve no contact with the victim upon release. Depending on the procedural background here, he might be prohibited from living near her anyway. Rather than toying with a gun, she might want to just contact a victim advocate in her jurisdiction to find out if he’s violating any of his conditions.

  24. Now that’s feminine protection

    #23 I assume you are assuming that anonymous reported the crime, the perp was caught and that he was successfully prosecuted.

  26. @23
    If you read the I Anon another time, you’ll notice that she was raped 14 years ago but he wasn’t listed on the registry until a few years ago, indicating that either she never reported the act or he was never convicted of it.

    Why on earth are people trying to “prove” that this is fake? It’s not terribly implausible, but either way IT DOESN’T MATTER. Even if this is just a rape victim’s revenge fantasy or a work of utter fiction, you are still getting the visceral experience which is why you read I Anon in the first place.

  27. I have no view on the “ladies gun” stuff . . . but @9: what makes gunning someone down a “feminist” move? More like reproducing violent male retribution fantasies.

  29. Fake. But she should have hit him up for a re-run. Nothing feels better than a good old fashion grudge fuck. Oh, and congrats for allowing a known sex offender/child rapist walk away with a little girl in hand. Since there would be no way for you to know it was his daughter you did nothing and possibly allowed another young innocent girl to be molested. Great fucking job Anon. Now go suck on the barrel of that SP101.

  30. Wow, you people are real pieces of work. Not only do I truly believe that this is real, because being a victim of sexual abuse if I were to cross paths with the lowlife scum again, I would kill him, instantly, without an ounce of regret.
    Obviously the ones screaming “fake” have never been or known a victim of abuse.
    Or tell her to kill herself?? You people are just as soulless as any rapist could be.
    I hope you find compassion for others before your hatred eats you alive.

  31. Fake. Way too pat and “polished” for the supposed situation, more like short-form fiction.

    Fully-loaded, that Ruger weighs 2 lbs and, small frame or not, becomes a pain to carry around.

  32. As a sex offender w/ a porn conviction I can say that we are all not the same. sure I’ve lumped myself into that category by my own actions-but I’ve done my time and probation.
    will I ever ‘get out from under it?’ Probably not AS LONG AS OTHER PEOPLE NEED A SCAPEGOAT WHOSE SHIT SMELLS WORSE THAN THEIRS.
    Anyways, cheerio, and remember the ex-cons who can’t get a decent job are more likely to stay in a cycle of crime-just what 14 yo’s need, right?

  33. you know you whiner bitch you should let that go.
    grafitti i once saw:
    “DEAD MEN DON’T RAPE”
    and scrawled underneath that:
    “dead women don’t gripe’
    hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

  34. People who have had some sort of traumatic experience like this think things through repeatedly. I don’t think it is fake. While it seems that you guys all think the handgun of choice is an issue, perhaps she felt as if it were the best option to protect herself. I am going to assume with my optimistic side that she has a concealed carry permit, and therefore has had ample practice aiming and shooting said gun. A rape victim would not want to be in a situation they could not control, so I don’t think they’d have a gun they can’t control.

  35. Fake, not fake, don’t know. But the hollow points don’t rule it out. Most hand gun owners target shoot with full metal jacket, and carry hollow point for day to day protection. Contrary to popular opinion, if you are going to carry a gun it is more responsible and safer to use hollow points. Hollow points do more damage to flesh (which you want if you shoot someone) but penetrate walls, windows, doors, less well so misses ate less likely to carry on and kill someone unintentionally.

  36. I don’t think this is fake- The letter echoes too closely what I felt when I was 20 and I saw the man who had assaulted me when I was 11… I wanted so, so badly to make a huge, nasty, screaming and shattered glass scene and simply… couldn’t. I was paralyzed, all this rage exploding inside my head that I was totally unable to give a voice…. If I’d been armed, I imagine I’d have had a chain of thoughts very like those described.

  38. Those of you crying “fake” because of the type of handgun mentioned – I am a small woman (5’2″, 135lbs, small hands even for my size) and I carried an SP101 for years (and practiced with it weekly). I also used hollow points, but I loaded with .38 Special +P rounds instead of .357, because the recoil on that gun is, indeed, a motherfucker.

    I gave it up and went to a semi-auto .380 some time ago. A smaller-caliber weapon that is less punishing to fire, holds more rounds, and is easier to hit my target with is a better weapon to carry than the larger-caliber weapon that’s uncomfortable to fire.

  41. Wow, There is a bunch of heartless pieces of shit, with the sense of humor of 7th graders in the NW! Reading most of these comments made me want to vomit on my computer, then promptly smash it into the wall… Soooo thankful that I no longer live in the land of DOUCHBAGS!

  42. Fucking A Baby! I played God in the military. It is a terrifying yet calming sense of mind. I warn you. Do not enjoy that feeling, it will lead you down a dark path into a maze which you may not find your way out.

  47. What victim of a violent crime wouldn’t look at their attacker and imagine killing him? Of course, if we are imagining then we ought to imagine 10 years later when his daughter sees anon at a bus stop and imagines “One Bullet Would Solve Everything”

  48. I call shenanigans. The entire scenario is too much like one of those bloody, “victim-turned-vigilante-hellbent-on-justice” movies. It’s not very imaginative, even for fiction. I think it’s pretty low to pretend to be a victim of a crime as horrible as rape so that people will take you seriously and might hesitate to or feel bad about calling you on your bullshit.

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