“Why the depressing text?” you ask. BECAUSE I’M FUCKING DEPRESSED IS
WHY, Jesus fucking Christ almighty. You were saying that it “made you
sad”—fuck you. You lost that fucking right the moment you decided
you wanted to break up. It was your goddamn decision, and no one was
pointing a gun to your fucking head and making you do it. If you’re
sad, I sure as fuck don’t want to hear about it. You think you’re sad?
You should have fucking seen me. The last six months of my life have
been the worst six months of my life. I don’t want to hear you bitch
about your life being hard because you’re sick a third of the time and
you miss your friends. I HAVE FUCKING DIABETES, which I have to live
with every day for the rest of my life, and my best friend, my ONLY
REAL FRIEND, FUCKING KILLED HIMSELF. At least you get to see your
fucking friends again. I am THIS CLOSE to failing out of college, my
life is in shambles, and there’s not a day that goes by I don’t wish I
was someone else, somewhere else. I hate my life with a passion, I’ve
fucked it up a lot personally, and it has been fucked with plenty by
the fates. But I’m sick and tired of it. If someone told me six months
ago what my life would be like today, I would honestly have killed
myself rather than deal with all the fucked-up shit that’s gone on. So
next time I say something depressing, THAT’S FUCKING WHY. recommended

98 replies on “I, Anonymous”

  1. Anon: you might not believe it, but this just might be the moment of your life that prompts you to make major change. Get out of bed every day, make some breakfast, go through your routine, and in another six months you’ll feel better. Trust me. Try to exercise even a little bit every day, even if it’s just walking down to the coffee shop to buy a cup of joe.

    Also, there will come a moment when you wake up and all this hurts just a tiny bit less than it did the day before. That’s when you’ll know you’ve rounded the corner. From then on out, it will continue to hurt a little bit less each day.

    Live through this. You’ll be glad someday you did.

  3. Wow! College sucks! It gets better…seriously. Just give it a little time. And perhaps you should talk to somebody a little more helpful than your ex.

  6. Remember Diabe-tard, its down the street not across the road. And when you do off yourself, do it in a way that doesn’t impact innocent bystanders. Just go quick and easy.

  11. geez. stop whining. this is the most self-indulgent thing i’ve ever read. your friend killed himself, and your making it about how hard your life is? shut the fuck up. who are you to belittle someone’s problems? some friend you are, someone expresses discontent with their life, and they’re suddenly belittling YOUR tragic life? grow up.

  12. You might have real problems, but if you’re texting depressing messages to your ex, it sounds to me like you’re asking for drama. If it’s really as bad as you say, you need therapy. If you’re just trying to stir things up or dredge for sympathy from someone who you apparently didn’t want to dump you, you need to give it up and move on.

  13. @Mongo
    You need to shut the fuck up, I will literally come to your door and kill you.

    @Lmnop
    why do you assume “he left”, that is some sexist bullshit. also obviously this person wasn’t depressed when they were going out can you read?

  15. getting dumped sucks- no way around it. you just gotta give it time and have faith that things will get better. get laid too, and date other people, that helps.

  16. I think it’s safe to assume that they left you because you’re terrific, and that’s why your best friend killed himself too.

  17. Boo fucking hoo.

    We all have problems and mine are WAY worse than yours….but you don’t hear me bitching like this.

    Why? Because I’m grown and take life on life’s terms.

    And I wouldn’t whine to my ex…and I most certainly wouldn’t whine to a city full of strangers when my ex calls me on my shit.

    No wonder you’re alone.

  18. Buy the ticket, take the ride. But hey, thanks for posting.It’s true. There’s always someone who’s more fucked up than you. So, my life sucks a little less.

  21. We all get crapped on. And we all get our hears broken. And yes, sooner or later, we all lose someone we love to death.
    And it hurts, it hurts so bad we don’t think we can take it. It hurts so bad that we can’t imagine that almost everyone has suffered this pain. And it hurts so bad that life starts to fall apart around us because, after all, we are walking around with the emotional equivelent of a compound fracture.
    And we try to handle it with dignity. But we don’t. We take that shit pile and smear it all over the walls for everyone to see. And we are embarassed, and still in pain. And we don’t want to live.

    But we do. And we heal. We slowly heal.

    Fuck your ex. Don’t call him/her, don’t text him/her. Just writhe in agony for as long as you have to. It’s what you have to do. You have no choice. And life will slowly get better.

  22. Life sucks, fuck you, fuck me, blah, blah, blah. Now shut up, stop being a self-pitying retard and get some help if you need it.

    @ Lizza
    Don’t be a snotty bitch.

    @ dc
    I will come to your door and kill you back for killing Mongo- why do you hate retards so much?

    @ CM
    Hafnium

    @ CM again
    Aluminium

    @ CM thrice
    Palladium? Am I getting closer? I love metal.

  24. mongo doesn’t have a problem, he made a valid comment. if you are gonna off yourself, don’t take anyone else with you or make innocent bystanders witness your final act of cowardice.

    YesIdid just say that..so suck it!

  25. What if something happens in the next sixth months that is so great you can’t even imagine it? would you go through everything before that again then?

  26. @ dark helmet lover
    Obviously I can take you if I can also take the differently abled. This person is not saying they are going to commit suicide, so even broaching that subject is just adding more for no reason.

  28. Negative, belittling comments are what overcompensating, passive aggressive Seattlites specialize in, moop. As for this I, Anonymous, … I actually wish I could do something for this person. I have had diabetes since I was a child and dealt with the suicide of someone close. Hang in there, completely anonymous person who probably won’t read my comment. Do hang in there.

  31. whatever. this guys ex sounds like so many people these days who cant see past their own fucking nose. whether you think its cool or not people have feelings and its about time , if i may quote bill and ted, that people started being most excellent to eachother. stop being such douche-bags.

  32. fuck all you, you dont know the situation your dealing with till you face it head on. plaese dont comment further. THANK YOU
    – blaine j darrah.

  34. also some of these comments are helpful. apparently you put as much time time learning how to spell “please” as reading them though

  36. If your ex-dumped you, why are you texting him/her? Grow the fuck up. School is hard. Your ex doesn’t love you. You have a chronic illness.

    Welcome to life. It’s like that for everyone. You have an enormous sense of entitlement. No one deserves anything in life. It is only what you can earn.

    You don’t deserve your ex’s love. You don’t deserve an easy time in school. You don’t deserve a working pancreas. But you can earn better things in life, by shutting your bitch hole and working hard.

  38. Lets have a pity party!

    The only thing you need to change is your shitty attitude.
    Oh, and maybe your meds. Definitely change your meds.

  39. I cringe when I hear about people being totally pathetic to their ex’s. CRINGE. Have some self-respect, realize that he is FAR from the last guy in your life…You are embarrassing yourself and he’s certainly not going to come running back to you.

    In college I got hung over my ex for months and in the end it only damaged my dignity and a lot of respect that my friends had in me was lost.

    Take a step back and really look at your life and problems. Not as bad as you think.

  41. When you’re depressed over a breakup, DO NOT text your ex. (It’s pretty easy to remember.. do not text the ex, it almost rhymes). Always imagine what it’s like for them to receive these dramatic, whiny text messages.. they’re probably sitting on a couch, having a beer with some friends, and guess what–those text messages are NOT going to help you get that person back. It makes you look more desperate. I know you really desire to express your feelings, and of course to the person who put you through this–but he broke up wtih you, and he DOESN’T care anymore.

    ‘Tis life. Move on, find new friends, new happiness.

  43. I don’t understand this. Anonymous seems to be mad at his/her ex-partner because the ex says that the depressing text that anonymous sent the ex made the ex sad. If anonymous thinks the ex has lost the right to be sad about him/her because they broke up why is anonymous sending the ex text messages anyway? No wonder they broke up. Only an idiot would want to stay with an irrational, clinically depressed, self-pitying, emotional vampire like Anonymous.

  44. Reality check: YOU want to break up with ME?! Well, that means that you STILL get all the fucked up shit of my life, but now you don’t get to comment on it anymore. AHAHAHAHAH. Take that, fucker. Teach you to break up with me.

    Now, I’m gonna go cry.

  45. Guys, do the poster a favor and provide a little of this fuckin’ thing known as “empathy.” Self pity can be frustrating for those around us, but we all do it when we’re at a low and venting fuckin’ works get it off our chests. Lord knows we all have smelt the ass crack that life can be and needed to vent and have someone help us stand back up again. When you’re looking down from your soapbox, you may just spy a past self of yours out there.

  46. This deleting comment thing is highly amusing. It kind of reminds me of those LJ posts where somebody posts “Tell me what you really think” but then deletes all responses that say anything negative about them.

    This will be deleted as “Off-topic” I imagine.

  49. Hey Anon,
    ignore the heartless posters, they’re just trolling the internet looking for easy pray. the world is full of innocent kids who’ve never learned compassion, never really let themselves feel real pain. they’re vile monsters, but what can you do?

    The first poster’s advice is good. everything changes.No excruciating emotional agony stays exactly the same forever. But things can also get worse, if you are reckless. Focus on surviving and recovering, and improving your situation…

    I’m sorry you lost your only real friend, and that your ex was flippant, and doesn’t get what you’re going through. some people live in bubbles compared to others. But people who feel real pain, also get stronger. I always thought that was a cliche, but it’s turning out to be less of a cliche than I realised. but you have to focus on getting strong and surviving as your goal. forcing insensitive bystanders to recognise your pain is a waste of energy. Thank you for putting my bad year into perspective. I’ve been hurting too. but I didn’t have a friend die, and I have a job. good luck.

  50. you’re angry, and you should be, it is not your fault you have diabetes, it is not your fault he did what he did, you have every right to be depressed, but things will get better. it sounds so ridiculous to say you’re better for it right now, but seriously it will begin to hurt a little less in time, and when things are going wrong for your friends in the future your empathy will be so much deeper. you will be able to support people, unlike your ex who can’t help you now, but there are people out there with the same hurt who can support you. be strong, you will find them.

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